Departure (An Experiment in Human Salvage) – 25th October

Honoured to be appearing as a guest artist in Dominic Johnson’s Departure (An Experiment in Human Salvage) at Chelsea Theatre as part of the Sacred Season, on 25th October.

Departure (An Experiment in Human Salvage) is a performance involving live tattooing on Dominic Johnson’s hands, carried out by the renowned tattoo artist Alex Binnie. The tattoos function as permanent archival documents of performance, and as art works in their own rights. Pain and the wound are therefore incidental to the production of a striking permanent image on the body – in Departure as well as in tattooing as a traditional cultural practice more generally. How might disaster be represented or produced without recourse to sacred imagery? What might a new secular pantheon of catastrophic images look like? In Departure, the creation of a lasting image in performance mimics and explores the histories of tattooing and scarification as practices of body modification.

Departure includes live performances by three guest artists: Mouse, jamie lewis hadley, and Traumata (Hellen Burrough); sound design by Mark Peter Wright; and lighting design by Marty Langthorne.

Departure is a co-commission by Fierce and Chelsea Theatre. It received generous funding from Arts Council England’s Grants for the Arts scheme.”


Carnesky’s Tarot Drome

Carnesky's Tarot Drome

Carnesky’s Tarot Drome
4–13 September 2012 8PM

The Old Vic Tunnels

Real Living Tarot. Risqué Performance. Roller Skates. Rock Opera.
Dare you enter Carnesky’s Tarot Drome?

I’m honoured to be in the cast of Marisa Carnesky’s new immersive theatre show, it’s going to be incredible.

Breaking Kayfabe

I spent 3 days at the end of October learning about pro wrestling as part of the Breaking Kayfabe workshop organised by Jamie Lewis Hadley & Live Art Development Agency.

My other half is a wrestler, he has been for about 15 years I think, so I know a fair bit about it. Since meeting him and learning more about the world of wrestling I’ve come to see it as a form of theatre with definite links & connections to the work I do. Pushing the body and presenting pain to an audience, turning gestures into narrative & emotions. This all happens in the wrestling ring too.

The 3 days in which I learnt wrestling techniques, how to lock up, how to fall safely, how to move around the ring correctly were so much more physically and emotionally intense than I expected. I was terrified by falling backwards, really struggled with overriding my physical instincts to make sure I landed in the correct way, I was scared to keep going, to keep falling even when everything already hurt. I cried more than once.

But I also achieved more than I ever thought I would. I’ve never seen myself as a sporty, athletic person, I thought these acrobatic wrestling moves would be way beyond me.

I actually sat out on the second day as people were taught how to take a hip toss as I didn’t believe I could do it, but eventually, I realised that the only thing stopping me was my own fear and laziness. On the third day of the workshop, I pushed myself to try it, and I did it. More than once. With a huge, huge grin on my face.  It’s an incredible feeling, similar what I experience when doing suspensions, I took control of myself physically and mentally. I realised I’m a lot tougher than I thought.

I was left battered and bruised – I failed to listen to instruction, went with instinct instead, and as a result have injured my knee. It’s going to take about a month to heal.  I had a huge bruise on my back from hitting the ring posts incorrectly, or repeatedly, I don’t know which. Despite all this I’m elated, I feel stronger, I know my body better, I know I don’t deal well with pain I’m not in control of, and I now know that I can overcome that.

I learnt a hell of a lot more than just the wrestling moves.

This isn’t even mentioning the other people involved, the brilliant supportive teachers – Jamie, Greg, Garry & Phil, the other course participants – a mix of artists, dancers and actors, who all bought new perspectives into the ring, who kept the whole thing amazingly fun no matter how much we hurt and I don’t think I could have got through it without them all.

The strangest thing is, I woke up the day after the course had finished, struggled to get out of bed due to the massive aches in my neck, shoulders, knees, thighs, and really, really wished I could be doing it all over again.








My body. In numbers.

Height: 170cm

Weight: 64kg

BMI: 22.1

Waist to Hip Ratio: 0.87

Systolic Blood Pressure: 114 mmHg

Diastolic Blood Pressure: 74mmHg

Aerobic Fitness: VO2 Max: 37 ml/kg/min

Resting Heart Rate: 73 bpm

Blood Glucose: 4.6mmol/L


All figures were taken during a health check at the gym. Part of a new interest in daring to present myself as I am. Flaws and all. No Photoshop, no flattering outfits. Dealing with it, accepting it. 


Come To The Cabaret: The Independent




Well this is pretty awesome. My Red Rabbit/Double R Club performance got a mention in The Independent!

“A woman dubbed Traumata pulled needles out from under the skin of her forehead. The blood ran down over her white corset and underwear as she lifted her arms into the cruciform pose, looking like a sexualised female Christ minus the crown of thorns.”

Read the full article here: Come To The Cabaret. My first time in the national press!

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